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15 Months is a short film sharing my experience and feelings over the last year and a half.

Original Music by: Ursine Vulpine


  1. TheRequiemRaccoon
    33 minutit tagasi

    oh fuck...

  2. shandromand
    Tund tagasi

    Bugger all to people who say routine can ONLY be a good thing. I'd like to think I've handled my self-imposed isolation over the last two years fairly well, but there are times where this feeling you've conveyed *really* well rears it's ugly head and snarls at me. I've struggled with finding the motivation to do many of the things that I used to do, my attention span has suffered, and work bores me to tears (even with all it's complexities and new things to learn). But really, sometimes the worst part is my struggle with sleep. Like, fuck you, body, give me more than three hours at a time! I feel like I'm going crazy.

  3. ZombieEmpire
    6 tundi tagasi

    This made me so uncomfortable and confused at the same time, I do feel the same way about what @grace said but do you actually have asthma?, I think it hit me because seeing all that medication is exactly what I see my dad take every day and night, instead its not to do with his lungs

  4. Fyredust
    7 tundi tagasi

    This video was EPIC! It makes me wanna [hyperlink blocked] !

  5. Artemis
    9 tundi tagasi

    Well done Sean, well done. What you've shown here will change the lives of more people than you could possibly imagine.

  6. Volturius
    19 tundi tagasi

    He puts he's hair down- Jack- Oh it's Big Emo time! Btw. Reading Berserk wouldn't giive you much hope ha ha(beacuse it's all motive is about predestination and helplessness), but if you enjoy it, then it's all you need man. Hard to tell what will happen after Miura death.

  7. Jack Walsh
    Jack Walsh
    21 tund tagasi

    when he woke up i imagined a TOP OF THE MORNING TO YA LADDIES

  8. lucky pepper
    lucky pepper
    Päev tagasi

    Bro free guy makes so much sense to this video

  9. editae._
    Päev tagasi

    Cried watching this. Cried for the fact that I cannot help a man who's made me laugh everyday, who's made me smile and cheered me up through his videos, his personality, his tweets and his realness. I love you, Jack, and I still probably can't comprehend what you've been going through but I genuinely hope you get through it strong and I wish you the very best of luck in life. You're like a dad I never had, might sound weird but, that's how much I respect you and you work, man.

  10. Joshwa Terryanne
    Joshwa Terryanne
    Päev tagasi

    What the mind does to you is immeasurable you being your own greatest enemy couldn’t be any more true dedicated to one thing you aren’t focused on other things so ur brain starts to fill up the empty gaps and they aren’t always with the best things

  11. Alexandra Kirilenko
    Alexandra Kirilenko
    Päev tagasi

    As person who also have a chronic disease I understand I have anxiety for the things that could happen to me it scary ps I take Seritaline too

  12. Wyatt Clark
    Wyatt Clark
    Päev tagasi

    I really wish I lived near Sean because I could go over every single day and support Sean.❤️❤️❤️

  13. John Bonham
    John Bonham
    2 päeva tagasi

    This was a deeper and more meaningful version of the Bo Burnham movie. Directed, shot, and stared by Sean. Very beautiful, man.

  14. NoMicMan
    2 päeva tagasi

    The hero has risen to sovengard

  15. slipknot2ksean
    2 päeva tagasi

    Wow...this was really good Sean! Love you man🤘🏻🙏🏻keep being so talented like we know you are. Also I've had asthma since i was 5. Miss ya man!!🤘🏻

  16. Sophie Maner
    Sophie Maner
    3 päeva tagasi


  17. An Anomaly
    An Anomaly
    3 päeva tagasi

    This shows me Sean really needs to expand beyond the framework of his youtube channel. His talent is amazing, he makes so many great decisions throughout the course of his mini movie which is about his own anxiety that is built on continuing in something he is losing touch with, and it draging him down a dark, unhealthy path of his mind in monotony. Sean, oif you do read this, just know that there is nothing wrong with you needing and wanting to move on from this medium. Remember, success is relative, and you can find it in many other ways outside of monetary gains. Trust youself, experiment and explore avenues. I can see you are a great story teller, and managed to make a point and tell your truth without ushering a word. That is called talent my friend.

  18. Grace Worlley
    Grace Worlley
    3 päeva tagasi


    1. KentonTheLucario
      2 päeva tagasi


    3 päeva tagasi

    omg. I think it means we are all lonely. damn. that's deep

  20. DaiNoShoujoNoYami
    4 päeva tagasi

    Pharmacy Tech here - most of the drugs he showed are ones typically prescribed to people who have anxiety disorders. Omeprazole is the generic of Prilosec (Over production of stomach acid due to stress), Sertraline is the generic of a beta-blocker that is used to help regulate the chemicals in your brain to normalize your ups and downs, Ventolin is a rescue inhaler for shortness of breath (common symptom of panic attacks), Montelukast is for long term treatment of asthma attacks to prevent them from happening (constant panic attacks can also do this), etc. Goes to show ya Jack has an impeccable eye for detail 👌

  21. puddel90
    4 päeva tagasi

    I feel more than a little invasive after watching the bored editing and scrolling... Guess my disdain for celebrity worship has more weight than I imagined.

  22. stevie bea
    stevie bea
    4 päeva tagasi

    he spent the whole video after the intro inside looking out, and finally let himself take a break from the pressure and go outside, just to have the nagging weight of eyes upon eyes via the camera waiting for him to return. take as much time as you need, sean. jack can wait.

  23. toasterZkid
    5 päeva tagasi

    it feels like a horror movie in a good way

  24. Sparethunder
    5 päeva tagasi

    This topic may have been said already but I just watched the video (when i had time to).... this video touched on a lot of things that I think are quite personal to you Sean. I wont go into massive detail but I will touch on them. 1) the camera, the eyes, staring at comments.... you obessivly drowned yourself with your channel. 2) the working out, the reaching out. You did see what was happening and made an attempt to rectify it.... 3) and second hardest of them all. the inhalers, the pills.... personally I saw coming across as some kind of chemical dependency for something, maybe not quite an addiction, but a dependency. HOWEVER 4) You stepping out, into the sunlight. Holding out your arms and the camera showing after. That was your way of showing you are "letting go"... you still love us all, however you know you can no longer be obssessed because with your channel, and you acknowledged and let go of the "dependencey" you had..... This might sound like rude or a calling out Sean. It is not. You took a step to better yourself and I personally though I have not been able to watch as much as I used to, I see that with your demeanor. I personally am so proud of you. Keep looking forward. You are doing amazingly. Keep fighting. Keep pushing. Even if you never upload again. We all have your back. Always and forever.

  25. The Edingham Fam
    The Edingham Fam
    6 päeva tagasi

    first wait till this is a year and 3 months old then we'll talk

  26. Treborx4
    6 päeva tagasi

    When's 16 months?

  27. Kate Haley
    Kate Haley
    6 päeva tagasi

    He has asthma doe wat how did I not-

  28. Yair Blumenthal
    Yair Blumenthal
    6 päeva tagasi

    Damn that was changing. Great job on that! One thing you could to help is have a busy hobby, so that you could have something to work on but that you actually want to do, so as to not tire you out.

  29. Samantha Riet
    Samantha Riet
    6 päeva tagasi

    No air! beautifully done.I hope you have some more air now and plz take care of yourself first

  30. Emma Howard
    Emma Howard
    7 päeva tagasi

    the camera at the end scared me for a second. Staring into the lense just for a minute was unnerving, I can't imagine how he feels.

  31. Gus Pokémon and other things
    Gus Pokémon and other things
    7 päeva tagasi

    I love you jack you are so important to me don’t ever forget that

  32. Ami Woods
    Ami Woods
    7 päeva tagasi

    The cinematography is amazing!!!!

  33. Mason Mercer
    Mason Mercer
    7 päeva tagasi

    Biggest thought in my head while watching this was "I just wish could help him and do for him the same that he did for me". There's a persistent feeling of loneliness and isolation and anxiety and I really empathize with it a lot. Sean always put himself out as someone who's always having fun and being foolish and that's pretty much all we've seen and we wouldn't have even known the difference if he never showed us. His videos are always so fun to watch and always brought light and joy to whatever situation I was in and he's done things for me that I wouldn't have been able to do for myself and that's something that I don't know I'd even be able to pay back and I can't even get the chance to thank him. If you've ever heard someone say the term "good person", Sean is who they're talking about. Never complains, never disappoints, never lacks, and does it regardless of his own feelings and doesn't other people see them. Sean, you might not ever see this but just in case you do... Thank you, you've done so many things for me and millions of other people, I appreciate you and your work and it's something that I'm going to remember for a long time. Shit gets tough and a lot of the time there's no changing it, but there's only so low you can go and then the only option is up. You've done too much for everybody without enough done for yourself, it's time that you focus on yourself more than us, and whoever don't like that idea gooooo fuck yourselvessssssss! Keep your head up, we love you buddy

  34. MoJMoV
    7 päeva tagasi

    Bruh what

  35. Dekser
    7 päeva tagasi

    That shot of the dilating pupil was amazing.

  36. Suzie Dez
    Suzie Dez
    7 päeva tagasi

    i was so confused about why it was called 15 months it took me like 7 and a half minutes to realise it was lockdown

  37. Reed Gfx
    Reed Gfx
    7 päeva tagasi

    It's weird how much I relate to how you are when you're not on games and just sitting there, like "dead" inside in a way. I feel depressed or unhappy doing things I normally always greatly enjoy and love doing. I only experience what feels like joy when I go greatly out of my way to be out of my regular zone. Edit: I just don't know what to do with myself when I have free time anymore, it makes me feel lost.

  38. Milam Robinson
    Milam Robinson
    8 päeva tagasi

    Stay strong push through jack you got this

  39. Cassia Berry
    Cassia Berry
    8 päeva tagasi

    You've captured the eyes of hundreds of people. You hear their criticism and see their comments... But I'm afraid that you've forgotten. You may have captured the eyes of hundreds, but you've also captured the hearts of thousands. You bring joy to so many people 💕💕 you've brought life back to others. You are an amazing EEfastr, but a better human being. 🥺🥺 stay strong

  40. Gabriel Barbosa
    Gabriel Barbosa
    8 päeva tagasi

    This is incredibly done I’m amazed we are all here for you sean

  41. US GameWolf
    US GameWolf
    8 päeva tagasi

    this is the awakening of the world bro, holy shit what an amazing film. i hope everything is going good and we will always support your funny arse. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  42. Chloi Love
    Chloi Love
    8 päeva tagasi

    Sean, I am one of your biggest fans, I've been watching your videos since 2010, your are my idol, my friend, I hope you understand that we are always here for you. 💖💖🥺🥺

  43. Mystical Manic 🧙‍♂️
    Mystical Manic 🧙‍♂️
    9 päeva tagasi

    I just subscribed today and want to say I understand 💙

  44. ghostxwolfx
    9 päeva tagasi

    hey jack feature this comment in a video you helped me I have been suffering from depression for years and helped me get through it even when I thought no one cared and I thank you so much but I wish I could help you I really do everyone sub to jack

  45. ghostxwolfx
    9 päeva tagasi

    I cant help you jack I wish I could

  46. Harry Roche
    Harry Roche
    9 päeva tagasi

    One thing I like about this is how, the passage of time is working with it. Forgive me if I'm misreading it creatively, but I get the feeling it was done in such a way that to me conveyed a sense of blurring, that every day it's the same thing, and it all just blends together, creating this mess of lost time, of moments that are just, conglomerates of days and days, and I think it's kind of clever. The ticking clock which comes in and out, it fades away and returns, as though we just aren't paying attention to the time as it passes. (I know I'm late but I wasn't getting any notifications)

  47. ghostxwolfx
    9 päeva tagasi

    omg jack I can relate to you

  48. _RED4CTED_
    9 päeva tagasi

    As someone with asthma, just hearing you wheezing started triggering mine. The cinematography in this video is absolutely killer! And so is the audio production, how the music built to a crescendo right before you took your inhaler at 5:10 and slowly came back down after you did so says alot without saying any words. Your first Cinematic video "CHASE" gave me inspiration to do my documentary on 2020. We love you Sean, that might be a bit weird to say for some random person on the internet. But we do. Keep being you boss.

  49. kyezygaming
    9 päeva tagasi

    This mans helped me get through my mum and dads divorse with his videos and i think now we all need to return the favour

  50. Lillian
    9 päeva tagasi

    I didn't want to feel this crushing, existential pain this morning, but this is BEAUTIFUL. Well done man, thanks for being brave enough to speak out about all these struggles

  51. Elle Amber
    Elle Amber
    10 päeva tagasi

    This is such a beautiful representation of the struggles and hardships Sean has faced. Also incredibly well made and triggered an intense reaction from seeing it and I ended up crying. Sean you are incredible in everything you do and you are a very strong person for not only getting through the hardships but also sharing this video about them. Love and support you always :)

    10 päeva tagasi

    I’m sorry. But I don’t understand the video. Am I dumb?

  53. Twisted
    10 päeva tagasi

    Omgosh... I did not expect this to be so thought provoking. The build up was really well done towards the end, the breathing, the intensity, holding your chest, the countless eyes, getting anxiety even in the middle of a pleasant conversation.. and the music ontop of that intense final shot/stare of the camera... WOW!!!!!.... the soundwork through this really helped tell the story. But that shot of you walking out of that basement into nature and sunshine touched me deep... the sheer sense of relief, release, letting go.. I love nature (and I know you do too 😉), nothing made me feel happier than to see you embrace it... For all you've done for so many over the years- including myself, who rewatches certain series of yours when I have to go back to hospital as it keeps me smiling and distracted.. You deserve to make this decision for YOURSELF. When I saw you in Pewds vid the other day and he said something about not uploading and you were like "why bother", I got it. But after watching this and struggling terribly for years with crippling anxiety myself, I REALLY got it.... this video truly is a piece of art, a bearing of your soul. Please, I hope you're happier, or at least getting there, getting outside and enjoying some peace..♡ I often sit in my front yard, just my cats lounging in the sun, skinks crawling out to sunbathe on the log next to me, all the small creatures and insects that crawl around in the grass or buzz around the flowers.. I just sit there in silence and soak in it. Nothing makes me feel more at peace. I want you to find your peace too, you deserve it. Thank you for everything. P.S thanks for the reminder to take my meds.. I'm on sertraline too 😅 Literally grabbed them as I watched and it made me feel even more of a connection in a weird way heh..

  54. dark Noob
    dark Noob
    10 päeva tagasi

    i just understand right off the bat jack. i feel like this everyday don't worry bud you will be ok from Co. Tipperary 🍀👍 new sub

  55. Mica
    10 päeva tagasi

    Your so brave for sharing this, even though you know you will get some hate, stay strong man. We believe in you

  56. moxxie
    10 päeva tagasi

    Dis one seen 8:10 of the remote i have that remote its right now next to me

  57. moxxie
    10 päeva tagasi

    Dis makes me fell like jack hase some bad virus and now he slowly diying

    1. moxxie
      10 päeva tagasi

      And it makes me fell bad and sad how it was done

  58. BridledandBare
    10 päeva tagasi

    I felt so much of this video. I just want to say thank you. So much. Please take care of your mental health as well as your respiratory problems. My daughter and I love you and Evelien so much and you look like you adore each other. Thank you for working as hard as you do to bring so much happiness to others. I hope one day all of us can do the same for you. 💚

  59. Fritz
    11 päeva tagasi


  60. Michael Burnheart
    Michael Burnheart
    11 päeva tagasi

    Come on

  61. Justin Morris
    Justin Morris
    11 päeva tagasi

    I hated it. And I loved it. Too real, and perfect. You've captured the spirit of 2019-2021. I enjoy your light-hearted content, but this is something different, and great. Great shooting, great editing. Great work. You've got more than EEfast to look forward to with content like this, but I hope you still stick around and keep doing what has put you in a position to make great content like this. Balance.

  62. Emotional Context
    Emotional Context
    12 päeva tagasi

    I just saying these, cause you are need to hear it, I'm telling this with %100 empathy. I think you are just stop making videos at this point, and get retirement, enjoy the life fullest without pressure. because health is more ımportant, and your are just destroying yourself doing something that you are not happy bout that. you should take care yourself instead working on the youtube, if you are forcing yourself to doing that still, don't do that, cause you are deserved better than this. this is not bout me, all the fans you had, but yourself

  63. Wingman46
    12 päeva tagasi

    not to get off topic, but jacks film sense is phenomenal he should do film!

  64. Zane Gamer
    Zane Gamer
    12 päeva tagasi


  65. Nicky The Demon
    Nicky The Demon
    13 päeva tagasi

    I hope u are doin well currently!!!! This got me so worried about ya Lad I'm here if ya need to vent. Just leave a comment on my channal if u ever feel bad in any way. I will answer as quick as I can Love ya From Nicky in sweden♥️ (and yeah I can 1000% say that I relate to this)

  66. Bystander
    13 päeva tagasi

    Sean: *kalm* *depressed boy* Jack: *AHHHHHHHHHHH*

  67. EliD70
    13 päeva tagasi

    Jack has asthma?! What a nerd! this is a joke it's a reference to an old video where there was an asthma infomercial jack reacted to

  68. Zachary Adams
    Zachary Adams
    13 päeva tagasi

    Wow this shit was deep

  69. Coco cola espuma
    Coco cola espuma
    13 päeva tagasi

    This is good u should be in a movie

  70. Haylon Hamilton
    Haylon Hamilton
    13 päeva tagasi

    What kind of clock is that i want one?

  71. Jeb
    14 päeva tagasi

    love you Jack

  72. QuietBiscuit
    14 päeva tagasi

    Sean my man you need a spacer for your inhaler. It makes a big difference especially if you're also panicking when trying to take it.

  73. Lindsay Oxley
    Lindsay Oxley
    14 päeva tagasi

    Well he clearly took A LOT of inspiration from Bo Burnham's 'Inside'. Not saying it isn't good to take inspiration from other things for your content of course and it is a good short film, but it'd be nice if he could credit his inspiration.

  74. Avery Rose Cloud
    Avery Rose Cloud
    14 päeva tagasi

    This was incredible. I absolutely loved this so much. I really hope Sean pursues some hobby in directing or editing, because this was so good!

  75. RAJ TAC - TTS
    14 päeva tagasi

    some of these sections remind me of mamamax and im not sure if i want to be absolutely scared shitless or really impressed

  76. SighMc
    14 päeva tagasi

    The way my heart hurts when I think about how we can't do nearly as well to help you like you help us. Your message went nowhere unheard. We love you, Sean.

  77. Approblade
    14 päeva tagasi

    U good bro? Edit: Obviously not. I hope you can get through this, I wish there was something we could do to help.

  78. mathew law
    mathew law
    14 päeva tagasi

    wow this is intresting

  79. Xhesian Mulgeci
    Xhesian Mulgeci
    14 päeva tagasi

    I hope you are doing well and you need to be strong LIKE A BOOOOOOOSSSSSS!!

  80. Yolandi Voysey
    Yolandi Voysey
    14 päeva tagasi

    This hit home for me Sean

  81. human blibord
    human blibord
    14 päeva tagasi

    Why are there so many dislikes

  82. Abacoot
    14 päeva tagasi

    Hope you are well Sean. I'm blessed my mindset has been extremely positive lately but I can relate to feeling alone sometimes. Seeing you lay back in your chair emotionless watching your own video hits hard. I use to watch old unleashed gaming videos of mine when I younger and happier for motivation 🔥

  83. Stephanie Moelker
    Stephanie Moelker
    15 päeva tagasi

    What a raw and really powerful message you have conveyed here! Very well done! Always in my families thoughts!

  84. Falensiana
    15 päeva tagasi

    The movie is incredible Sean, you did an amazing job with it, amazing portrayal of how you feel. You're always valid, I hope you find some source to help you as much as you've helped others, if not more

  85. hani kake
    hani kake
    15 päeva tagasi

    I love this kind of work! It’s refreshing, especially coming from someone I’ve been watching for years now. Thank you for sharing such an intimate piece with us, I can’t wait to see what else you’ll make.

  86. JulesOnly
    15 päeva tagasi

    Honestly every emotion is conveyed perfectly, you can feel every breath, every look, every thought. This is incredibly!

  87. kingiking110
    15 päeva tagasi

    I think I understand what this short film is trying to say and show. Feelings of isolation, sickness and nervousness. But unfortunately, for me it inspired non of those feelings. It's maybe because the entire time the thought that was swirling in my head was : " look at this rich famous young dude living in his dream house, doing his dream job, and the only real inconvenience in his life is some sort of respiratory disease that is not seriously debilitating or life threatening, and he is making a film about himself while millions of people are living much harder lives and are either silent or ignored!". I don't mean to be mean or hateful, and I hope you get well as soon as possible, but I can't deny that this film made me very bored (because of all those cliche shots and sounds) and also a bit annoyed (because of those thoughts I mentioned). Anyways, just an honest comment! Thank you for your cool gaming videos though! :)

  88. Alexander
    16 päeva tagasi

    I am glad you have had Evelyn in these times. I have always only had myself, I know what the deepest depths of loneliness is like. I wish I didn't. But you are not alone Sean, you have a community, a family, and a beautiful strong lady by your side. Ready to support you at any time. you have been a major part in my life since a young age, and I appreciate you a lot. I am sorry you have had to suffer as much as you have, but that is part of life apparently. Much love Sean, I am exciting for you to make content when you are ready for that!

  89. Raffa Shafi
    Raffa Shafi
    16 päeva tagasi

    Holy moly, I know Jack loves a good audio which is why I kinda expected it but dear God it's a blessing to my ears that stimulate every inch of my brain. Not to mention the cinematography as well as the foretelling of a story without much need of words... You really outdid yourself and thank you for making something so beautiful

  90. ElephantHut
    16 päeva tagasi

    I'm sorry you're going through that Sean. Yeah we enjoy your content, and it's sad some others tear it down, but your mental health is the most important out of all of this. You're a person too. Take care of yourself buddy. You've got your own life to take care of.

  91. David Davenport
    David Davenport
    16 päeva tagasi

    We love you Jack. I am glad you exist and I wish I could hug you right now so much. Its easy to just watch your content and see the happy face you put up, without seeing the real person for who they are. I love you jack. If you ever need any of us, we will be there.

  92. Treeholo
    16 päeva tagasi

    The cinematography in this is stunning, great work!

  93. Evanopili Smith Jones
    Evanopili Smith Jones
    17 päeva tagasi

    it must be really tough...I don't know how he does it... The pain of been ginger...

  94. yeahboi#81
    17 päeva tagasi

    After watching this for the forth time one thing sticks with me..... when your past self is reading the comment of a fan your present self is total polar opposite in mood, does this mean you dont feel as much joy in making your content anymore? Just wondering that all, because what you are doing for so many people out there is amazing and as long as your channel is out there it will continue to do positive things for this planet. So take care of yourself and keep a positive mentle attitude on and off camera .🤗

  95. Caitlynn Aguilar
    Caitlynn Aguilar
    17 päeva tagasi

    As a person who's asthma got worse after covid, I feel this one.

  96. sweater
    17 päeva tagasi

    soon in theaters

  97. Sayali Dalvi
    Sayali Dalvi
    18 päeva tagasi

    THEY’VE STOPPED. The trolls have finally stopped. This is great, Sean.

  98. Harvey Matthew Serrano
    Harvey Matthew Serrano
    18 päeva tagasi

    wait so hes not an introvert too?

  99. Steet
    18 päeva tagasi

    Sean, to get my peace of mind i would like to say that we all care about you and its fine to feel like this, sometimes its good to take a brake from it all. You feel like people are judging you and watching your every move and decision waiting to cancel you because of how fucked up social media is and how nasty people are to cancel someone so big over something so small. Live your life how you want to without worrying on what we think, we all love you for who you are weather the real you is the you on camera or not. You are probably sitting there now thinking that none of us know who you are because the real you isnt the you who is on camera or it might well be the real you. But either way, we all love you. They say a childs personality and character is built by the people around them and by roll models, now personally you sean, and felix have played a huge part in my childhood and shaping my character and my take on life. Youve helpled me a lot growing up going through many stages of my life like the loss of family and losing friends, im happy to say youre a friend ive had for 7 years even though you dont know who i am at all, and have helped me by simply being on my screen making me laugh. We all love you sean, so whatever youre going through please keep your head up and shoulders back and keep telling yourself youre a good person who has helped people and made peoples childhoods great. Sorry if there is any grammar mistakes or the English is bad, im bad and writing.

  100. Steet
    18 päeva tagasi

    I noticed youre on sertraline 5:36 now i know youve probably had a fucked up time of it.